HERE I AM, I SAY TO MYSELF

SO I FORGE AHEAD,
ATTEMPTING TO MAKE DECISIONS THAT SEEM CORRECT
AND AS I WAKE TO EACH DAY
SEE HOW WHAT I DO NOT KNOW
BUT MORE ACCURATE
WHAT I DO NOT DEAL WITH
HAS ITS FINGER IN THE WHOLE OF ME.

I FEEL BLIND AS TO HOW LIFE WILL COME OUT

I FEEL AS IF I AM JUST WAKING UP

FROM A SLEEP

THE KIND THAT YOU TAKE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY
ONLY TO WAKE UP THE SAME DAY
WITH THE REGULAR EXPECTAION OF MORNING

I KNOW I AM BEING VAGUE

I THINK IF YOU DO NOT DEAL WITH THE DIFFICULT PARTS OF YOUR LIFE
THEY BECOME LIKE CORAL
REEFING SLOWLY OVER MILLIONS OF HOURS
UNTILL THE ONLY WAY TO MOVE IS TO DESTROY

NOW AS DUST SETTLES

I AM WILLING TO SEEK OUT MY LIFE

INSTEAD OF WATCHING IT HAPPEN.